It’s hard for me to write tonight because I am still really depressed, and don’t wasn’t to do anything. I took today off on vacation to make pumpkin bars and chili for my family for tomorrow night, but didn’t really get anything done except cooked a pumpkin and toasted some pumpkin seeds. I just don’t have any energy or desire to do anything. I told my counselor that I just have so much pressure come down on me that I just want to throw my hands up and give up, and he told me no. We talked about the fact that I need to get out of the middle of everything and take care of myself. I don’t even know how to do those things.
i don’t even want to work my part time job, but I have to. Since I have missed work this week, I know I will need to work at least some during both Saturday and Sunday. I like the work, I’m just depressed and don’t want to do anything. I wouldn’t even go to my full time job if I didn’t have to, I would just stay at home and sit in my recliner and stare into space! I can’t even get the energy to do some closet cleaning so I can get more other two bedrooms carpet replaced with vinyl flooring.
i guess I’m going to close and maybe go to bed, I need to put chili in the crockpot in the morning before I go to work since I didn’t get it made today, or, the pumpkin bars either, and I really don’t care about that either. Countrygirl29