Today is May 3, 2013 and the time is moving by so quickly. It seems only yesterday that I lost Jennifer and Jeff. Yes, I’m emotional already this morning. I don’t feel like being at work but I don’t feel like being home, either. Besides that, I have too much to do to not work today. I feel somewhat nauseous, and I did yesterday afternoon, too.
I’ve already gone down to the cafeteria and got a Pepsi. I actually got it free this morning because there was no cashier in yet and they said to not pay.
I’ve been seriously thinking about not going to counseling on Wednesday night, and starting to try to wean myself down to every other week, but I know my counselor and I need to talk more about it first. But it’s not going to matter when I move to every other week, I’m still going to feel alone in the world. And I don’t know of any possible way that I can ever be happy again. My body and my heart and my mind are just not into it. It’s all that I can expect to just be able to function somewhat normally again.
I stopped for a few minutes and did something things for the associate provost and for a senior director here in the office, but now I am back.
I’ve thought about doing my writing, but just not posting it anymore, but, as you can see, that hasn’t happened yet or you wouldn’t be reading this.
I just realized that I had better stop and pay my cell phone bill, the card it always went onto automatically I had to cancel and replace, so the new number is not in the system. Then, I guess I will stop and play some spider solitaire. I can hardly believe that I play games so much on my Ipad, I was never a game player before, but it takes my mind away from life.
I won’t write today during lunch, as I am having lunch with a co-worker from another office. I’m back, I had to stop again and help a co-corker get things set up for a meeting. countrygirl29
Things have been pretty crazy around here. We put our house on the market Tuesday. By Wednesday evening, we had three sales contracts on the house. Our agent called all of the buyers and told them we were in a multiple contract situation and they needed to bring their best and final orders. Our house was listed at $172,500. A young couple with a little boy had written a full price contract. They raised their offer to $180,000, so naturally we accepted their offer. I got to meet them Wednesday and I really like them. The wife kept telling me how much she loves the house and how I had decorated it. Of course, we have to get through the inspection and appraisals, but we are suppose to close on May 29 and give possession on June 7. We don’t know for sure where we are going to live. Bill has accepeed a jomb in Colorado Springs as a Communications Director, so they will be moving around the same time. It is possible that we might go with them, though not ver. y likely. We will probably move to Rockwall, about ten miles awayx, where Linda lives..
I ho0pe y9ou keep writing and posting And taking poictures and posting them, too, I enjoy your writing and photography. You have talents that you can use to help yourself and others.
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